I’ve been writing about my experiences in dating older men. And although my aim was to show how to look at stressful situation with humor, to some people my stories were hurtful. That was not my intention. On the other hand I could see how those stories can bother some people especially if they are the men that did such things.

So, to keep the peace and love others, I deleted the three articles. I did not have to delete them, they were my creation, and I have the freedom of speech. I did not use anyone’s name, date, or any identifiable detail. However, I am Pro-peace, and I must love. How can I love others? I know I like to bring peace to others soul, and Love is not just a feeling. It is an active and conscious emotion.

The Bible says that Love is patient; love is kind. It does not envy; it does not boast; it is not proud. It does not dishonor others; it is not self-seeking; it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hope, always perseveres.

So, I must choose to do these things. I am not the most patient of persons, and I am proud. So I must work on calming myself and listen. I show patience when I actively listen. I show I am humble when I admit I need help and seek help. So, by taking my articles down, I am showing I am willing to love others, by giving respect to my elders and when we show respect to authority even when they don’t deserve it, we show honor. So, I am honoring others.

I am not self-seeking. I seek to be happy within me but do not seek wealth by taking from others or what others have. Being easily angered is a hard thing to control. For me, when I get angry, I go for a walk or jump in my pool. I must step away to keep control, but I am working on it. I can let things go without having to spend an hour at the gym, making all deaf with my music.

I can’t keep a record of wrongs. The good thing of having a mental episode is that my mind works differently now. I can keep secrets like a champ because I will forget them as soon as I am told. I can’t hold a grudge. However, I will remember how I felt, and that will fuel my prayers. I do not like the evil things that are happening in the world; I dislike to listen to the news. When I was younger, I wanted to help others, that was one of the reasons why I served in the Army, but even there I mess up so many times. My Soldiers used to ask me to park my broom in a safe place every morning. And today, I am retired and have no TV. I get my news through the internet news.

Love protects, trusts, hope, and perseveres. So, think about it. It is a hard job to love someone that we have a sexual and romantic love that binds us and is supposed to be our husband or wife, so imagine having to love all people around us. Paul is asking a lot in this Bible verse. Some people are best to love them from a distance, and I haven’t found any verse that says we must be chummy and best pals with all. But we do have to love others regardless of who they are. That is a hard thing to do. There are so many irritating people.

But, because I made up my mind to honor myself, my family, and my G-d, I am following this template. However, I had to find my internal love first. I had to learn to love me first and now that I have reached that level of acceptance and love for me, now, I can love others as I love myself. And those that I think are assholes; I will still love them and pray to the Lord to help them be a better version of themselves.

So, I deleted the three articles, because I am trying to love the two people that contacted me and I hurt with the three blog entries. But wait, I am not a saint. I am a helion that can’t get her head out of the books most days and can create havoc in an instant. So, do not think for a second I am nice. I am just trying my best not to mess up this chance of life. Hugs to all!

Have a blessed day